How I Stopped Chasing Happiness and Started Enjoying My Imperfect Life

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I want to live my life without stress and worries. I don’t need to be rich or famous. I just want to be happy. Have you ever set a goal and then become obsessed with it, making it the center of your life and arranging everything else around it? Did you think that only after you achieved your goal would you be totally relaxed and happy? I’ve done this many times.

Throughout my life, I’ve measured my happiness by my achievements. I pushed to get good grades in school, then focused on going to a good college, then getting a high-paying job.

However, even after getting all of those things, I was not happy. After attaining them, they felt ordinary, not as extraordinary as I thought they would be. The feeling of achievement was not that awesome after all. I bl-amed my lack of achievements for my dissatisfaction—that they were not enough for me to feel happy. So I thought I had to do more. I’d find a new goal, and I fell into the trap again. I always had something to pursue, and I could never feel happy until I achieved it all. The problem with measuring your happiness by your achievements. When we measure our happiness by our achievements, we focus on the end goal and miss so many other things in the process.

We forgot the ultimate goal of our lives.

Everyone wants to be happy. Eventually, all we’ve ever wanted is to enjoy our lives, to have a life that’s worth living. But when we focus only on the achievements, we let those short-term goals control our lives. And that was exactly what I did. As a result, I separated myself from my loved ones. In my vision of a happy life, I was always there with my family and for my family. But the hard truth was, I was not. In fact, I turned them down when they showed concern about me.

I felt like they didn’t understand my choices.

The whole reason I needed to achieve more was to be with them — when they would be happy and proud of me. But that was not what they wanted. They wanted me, not my titles. Whenever I achieved something, they were happy seeing me happy, not for anything else. A part of my happy ending was already with me, but I did not see it. I hurt my own feelings. As I was busy chasing the idea of my perfect life, measuring my worth by my achievements, I wasn’t fond of myself.

When I did not meet my target, I felt unworthy and I beat myself up. When I earned something, it wasn’t extraordinary enough to be proud of. I even beat myself up for not trying harder to receive something bigger. I had a rough relationship with myself. I thought I was never good enough for my own love, or for anyone else’s. It’s painful believing that you are unloved. I damaged my health.

Because I was fixated on achieving my goals above all else, I ignored my body when she screamed for rest. I thought I only deserved to rest when I could no longer work, when all of my energy was gone.

If I rested before my energy ran out, I thought I was a loser. A loser would not achieve anything. I worked my way to exhaustion just to earn myself some rest. I physically drained my immune system until just a simple cold would easily break me.

Learning to be happy with my imperfect life.

We all have the tendency to compare ourselves with others. I grew up believing life is a race, and I tried to be the fastest horse. Social media has made this worse. We see other successful people and we crave their achievements. We think if we were as successful as they are, as rich as they are, as talented as they are, we would be as happy as they are.

Only this isn’t the case. The truth is that we are different people, we have different goals and desires, but those are not factors that determine our happiness. Happiness is not the result of our effort. It cannot be measured by our accomplishments.

Happiness is the direction we choose and the way we live our lives. For some, happiness is to hear your mom’s voice on the phone every day. It may also be hearing all the funny things that happened to your one-year-old niece. Or the look in your husband’s eyes when you spend quality time with him. Happiness probably can be measured by laughter. Deep down, happiness is love and self-love. It’s realizing how beautiful your life actually is.

Here are some ways to discover life’s happiness:

Meditation

Meditation allows me to catch my breath, slow down, and look at my life with a totally different perspective. I used to think I could never meditate because I could not sit still and not think of anything. But I started small with eight minutes a day, and I’ve surprised myself. I finally learned that meditation is not about clearing your mind and thinking of nothing; it is about truly accepting who you are and not letting your wild thoughts control you. It helps me recognize and detach from my thoughts; to let go of all the chaos in my life.

Stay in the moment

After I started practicing meditation, I began to accept the moment more fully. It was not easy at first, as my mind was always wandering around, making up stories about my life.

But as soon I surrendered to the present, I began to show up and truly live in the moment. I no longer try to read a book while having lunch. I no longer think of my work while cooking or taking a shower. Instead, I try to taste the food in every single bite, to listen to different noises I make in the kitchen, to feel the warm water running over my body and let it wash off all of the stress and anxiety. Needless to say, I have never felt more alive. I now recognize how beautiful and colorful my life is.

Start writing a gratitude journal

I end my day by writing a gratitude journal. It felt silly at first. But writing down all the beautiful things brightens my life and makes me appreciate them even more.

No matter how hard we try, we can never feel positive all the time. Life is hard sometimes. Still, a gratitude journal helps me to let go of the negativities and feel grateful for the things I have.

Self-love affirmations

I start my day by telling myself how beautiful life is, and how much I love myself. Before I get out of my bed, I smile and tell myself, “Thank you for another wonderful day. I love you.” When I put my feet on the floor, I thank myself and tell myself “I love you” again. I affirm this fifty times a day, and as a result, I’ve started to believe in myself. It is eye-opening and life-changing to see how wonderful it is to have another day to live, to feel love and to enjoy life to the fullest.

“Today might not be perfect, but it’s a perfect day to feel happy.” ~Lori Deschene

Happiness is not something to pursue in the future. Happiness is available right now, right where you are. When we stop chasing the shadow of happiness, we begin to recognize that all the things we need to to be happy have been with us all along. We still need goals in our life to pursue, to not go astray, but we do not arrange our lives around them. When we stop comparing ourselves with others, then we can realize what truly matters to us. If you are like me, try to put yourself in the center and surrender to your heart, your soul. I let my heart tell me who I really am. I see, hear, smell, and taste like I never have before. Even though life has its ups and downs, I now know all the emotions are different colors in my happy-ever-after picture. I appreciate that I can still feel them. And know that even if our lives are not perfect, today is a perfect time to feel happy.

Comments:

harpyionI’m 45, I’ve been through some rough times in my life.

Often stuck in jobs that I didn’t like or that didn’t fit me, and sometimes unemployed for months. I was not well, barely holding on. Then I discovered Jordan Peterson & started implementing his advice into my life: Get yourself together, bring yourself & your house in order, use your time well, write down your goals, strive for meaning. Simple, basic things. But they work. I took some courses to upgrade my skills & started looking for a new job. It took me one year, but I finally found a new job that really fits me, that I enjoy a lot & that pays well. If you want somerhing, you can get it. Believe in your ability to turn your life around. And don’t overthink, don’t hesitate. Just do it. One step at a time. It works.

MúsicaPeople love him not just for his extensive knowledge, but also because he shows that he cares

MandyHappiness cannot be a goal, because there is inevitable suffering at times. I think you should work towards a happy life generally speaking, but finding meaning in life is far more significant and of value.

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